*sigh*
Feels like something is sucking the life out of me... I feel like a squeezed sponge. Not physically feeling bad. Just feel like nothing can cheer me up. Some kind of root system feeding off me. I'm saying goodbye to some part of myself. Something is wrong.
Last week with Chris didn't help. Not sure if that was the catalyst or not, but lately feeling like I need to disown my parents and brother here in Regina in order to free myself from this downward spiral. Not sure if I am just paying better attention to myself and now I'm noticing my true feelings... But suddenly, me, the optimistic one, just doesn't feel like looking at the sunny side of things anymore. Don't think there is a sunny side, nor that there ever was. Just a big delusion.
Just making sure it isn't my thyroid. Noticing a burning or tingling there once in a while. A few other rhythms unbalanced. Definitely not my old self... But maybe that's not such a bad thing. Maybe, once I get through this patch of tar, things will appear much brighter and cleaner on the other side. Got a call from my physician: my blood tests indicate I don't need to be in meds for my thyroid, so not sure what's going on then.
Maybe my vacation will help... Countdown to Florida on April 2nd.
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